Thought Overflow…Golda’s BlogIf memes are like genes, then having a conversation in which you share ideas and come up with new ones is like…?

So my writings here are sort of musings, on the personal side as opposed to the what-the-hell-is-going-on-in-the-world side. I also write as gvelez on medium; as wordmonkey on dailyKos; occasiontally on Blog for Arizona & Hacker Noon; and once on impakter and LA Progressive should you wish to subject yourself…

0 rambling Saturday mind

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Saturdays are for unwinding, expanding – my dad once said, the part that means you’re human. Yet for me now it still means typing on a keyboard, only typing things that spiral outward and don’t have to pass tests.

Today I found Ngugi Wa Thiong’o on the library display shelves, and given that is where I discovered Gene Sharp, and the whole literature of protest and democracy movements, stopped to read him. He spoke of keeping humanity by writing a novel on toilet paper in a Kenyan jail (now Kenya does have democracy – there must be a story there) and struggling to maintain spirit and self-worth thru words. Even outside of jail this need is universal, no?

I am glad that my project outside work, the what’s cookin’, is to help people express and connect, to create for each other. No amount of consumer goods produced in efficient factories can fill this need. Some of the modern sharing tech approaches it, but then turns around and uses it to manipulate the users. I am so motivated, to keep going on the work because the entire approach I want to succeed – the shared ownership, decision making – the problem with corporations of being T-Rex structures with tiny brains trying to control a large body – I am at least grateful to be able to be trying to do the work. Yet during the week, my self expression in exhausted state of mind becomes reduced to counting hits on tweets.

Strange that we have, like Emerson said, such ability to imagine and only one drop of ability to actualize it…

still nothing new here, only putting down some thoughts that circle around in my mind all the time – cleaning house, I suppose. I want to write about the patterns of society and corporations, the problem of the greedy ones seizing control, and how to simply counteract it by experimenting with legal structures, making it simple and easy to cooperate without central control. But my coding work presses on me, and I don’t feel like I can take the time to structure the argument, and anyway how many would read it? I will do it, but not today – today I will only ramble here.

Maybe I will code after all and write next week, or next. Or maybe I will work on the piece –
or get volunteers for long form nonfiction works.
Maybe I will start to write on paper again in the mornings. Only so much time for keyboards, after all.

Wrote a quick LTE this morning – I am such a Municipalism fan right now –
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In a small ray of hope during this contentious time, our city government seems to be genuinely responsive to the neighborhoods. A group of Rio Vista neighbors asked for the city’s help to restore the natural desert and block off wildcat trails; as a result, parts and rec staff brought us brush that they’ve trimmed in other parks and coordinated with a volunteer group of neighbors and civilian conservation core folks to distribute the brush according to a plan that will help restore the ecology.

And when the traffic stops that were used last time to help protect trails wound up scaring some horses, the city adapted and gave us low key wooden sawhorses instead. Its this – government responsiveness to regular people – that gives me hope.
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(posting this with a delay to see if the LTE makes it in first)

wrote this in response to a NYT op-ed calling for a grand strategy in American foreign policy:

Our grand strategy should be driven by our core principles: liberty and justice for all – not only for those who happen to live in America. If we can achieve that, the world will indeed be much safer, and more prosperous. Madison understood tyrants – the bill of rights is needed everywhere. Freedom of speech provides a corrective mechanism against corruption. Our grand strategy should be to support these rights universally. Whether that means we should act as a policeman, is a matter of tactics.

It seems so obvious to me, I don’t know why the democratic candidates and others are not saying this. Elizabeth Warren comes the closest, I think.

0 small spaces

Golda to RandomWrites  

i have become am becoming
adept at
exploring small spaces
in small moments
when time is short to climb a new mountain trail
turn longing sharply right and down into nearby wash
surprising a rabbit in its run
desert broom pushing up through a rotten log I’ve
never seen before

sand shoved tracks telling some mystery about chase and run
exploring the space I am always confined in
the grey folds inside
and thinking about codes for opening spaces and aspects
to let all the lonely potentials flower

0 a dedicated review

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ok, I had way too much fun writing this review…I picked up this book while walking around Barnes and Noble last night and well, you can read…F*ck your Book

0 Oh, Facebook

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Enough is enough. And also, this is why Civ.Works. Wrote that up in more detail for LA Progressive – https://www.laprogressive.com/facebook-okays-political-lies/

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Wrote this, on Rojava, trying to organize actionable things in a collaborative way: RFC3: Rojava, Syria and Turkey 2019

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Golda to Writing  

I will post this. Although it may ramble, be warned – this morning I have given myself permission to simply write, a sort of private-public diary, to try to tease one noodle out of the bowl, or to follow one twisted path of thoughts up to the root.

Reading Virginia Woolf helped, I think. Though it also made me discontent again in the routine I have accepted, the one where most of my life and day goes into work for something that I don’t fundamentally care deeply about, that is not core to me. How did that happen – something to do with rent, bills, children I think. Yet it also has a benefit, this discipline, I have learned valuable patterns from it. The question is, can I find time to apply those patterns to what is core to me, before my mind becomes more fuzzy than it already is?

I have found, this past year, some threads that do feel deeply central, some possible solutions to the world that I want to try, that can be tried by a single person or a small group, that I believe can grow and live and combat some of the cancers that are so rampant right now. Pursuing these fully leaves even less time for a wandering mind, but I cannot complain – perhaps I should instead read again Child of the Dark, in which the protagonist manages to write in the early hours of darkness while spending full days gathering paper to keep hunger from her children – not always successfully.

That said, where does this thread go, if not simply in a circle?

Tied to the real world after all, which is the only anchor to keep the tangles from simply becoming clouds of worms, or utter foolishness. People. A_, G_ the families who I have made connection with in their deep pain this last year. My children, of course, my husband. But when thinking about the world, it behooves one to connect to it in a real way. And making that contact, directly with the reality of fear and grief and loss under these authoritarian regimes growing like cancer with their disgusting front philosophies that greed is somehow good, or the shallow paper tigers of ‘fighting terror’ or ‘fighting corruption’ – but not by exposing it to the light.

That contact, for a while it made it difficult for me to have normal conversations, to deal with petty issues, even to take pleasure in silliness or lighthearted play or music.

Now that has changed, and somehow the minor inconveniences and small pleasures live side by side with the feeling of being in an epic battle for freedom, truth and cooperation against greed, lies and violence.

I still worry about letting people down, not doing enough to help, or forgetting my own family in the bigger picture, or just forgetting to feed the fish. But it feels more like a flow of some kind, now that I am swimming more than thrashing, or at least I hope so.

I find I feel love for my foxhole-mates, all the others that I know and do not know, who are engaged in this same struggle one way and another. I don’t feel any need to be in charge of others, but I do think that I have some insights that I want to share – about the patterns, that its not enough to say, here are the victims, A, and the perpetrators, B, and all we need do is kill the B and give weapons to the A. Because being a victim does not make one moral, or a leader, or necessarily know all the solutions! Even very innocent victims, may envision solutions that would produce a system that can be easily gamed or taken over, or misused, by oversimplifying and directing force without feedback.

Feedback, transparency, truth, openness – these are a general pattern that protects. Simply allowing others to see, and to comment, and to say the impact they have felt, is perhaps the most general and powerful corrective mechanism. This is why, in fighting I focus on openness, of the DHS camps, or of campaign donations, and at least contact into the secret prisons.

And, telling people who do not see, who do not realize, the level of hidden violence in the world, is another thing I want to find a way to do. Not sure how to do that, the talks that I see given seem mostly insufficient, but I don’t know that I’m prepared or qualified to do better. Perhaps I’ll try anyway.

The power of making sense…

The positive side of capitalism is a free flowing distribution of efforts and resources

Downside is that it is subject to both parasites and cancers

The real thing is the flow of information, effort and fixed resources. And this flow is more interesting if one starts with information rather than an anonymized proxy for resources. So information about what efforts are going on, how one can contribute, and what the intended outcome will be, allows people to optimize their contributions. trust networks, transparency and long term voluntary relationships minimize parasitism and cancers.

This is sort of a draft, will polish this later…

indeed – its only an anonymized representation of value. But some types of value inherently cannot be anonymized. Some of those come under the category of ‘love makes the world go round’